Sadnesses & Goofiness

So aside from the stress from changing companies and lots and lots of work, I've noticed a not so wonderful thing lately...

I'm losing my closest friends. I haven't seen one of my closest friends in months...I feel empty because of it. Another terribly close friend may be moving to California to enhance his career. And other such friends have moved away or moved on for some time now. I know life is constant change...but where are the people to replace the ones leaving?

Sure, one couple we love dearly...they are coming back to Louisville eventually and that will be wonderful. Mayhap others of my distributed bretheren will return some day. But that doesn't help right now, when it feels pretty darn empty of late.

Not that we're short of friends and acquaintances. But where are the new intimates? Those few people in this world that understand you deeply, who stand by you, who never tire of your presence even when you're both angry at everything. From whence shall they come?

When I received the call a week or so ago about my friend losing work and possibly needing to go to California, I had a minor panic attack. I couldn't focus. Breathing took effort. He has been a part of my life for over a decade, and the possibility of him not being around just downright shook me.

Thus my concern. Where are the new conspirators? With whom can I be as thick as thieves once these remaining few are no longer near?

On a lighter note, I thought I'd share a silly story. Lately I've been browsing Ebay for vintage cufflinks. I enjoy french cuff shirts, and rather than pay big money at retail outlets for cufflinks, I figured I'd get some a bit older with some character and/or history to them. I found one set from the 20s...abalone and silver; quite nice and affordable. Then I ran across ones that seemed perfect for me. Dice. Dice cufflinks.

Anyone who knows me knows I love dice. I usually have at least two dice on me at all times (yes, I know that is a bit odd). Vintage dice cufflinks?! Right on! They were late-60s, maybe early-70s gold cufflinks in good condition for a decent price. I was all about to snap them up in a heartbeat when I suddenly uttered noises of disgust and closed the auction window. Why?

Because the faces were wrong.

That's right. The faces were wrong. It was a two-dimensional representation of a three-quarter perspective of the die. To visualize, think of holding a die and looking at one of its corners...you can see three sides. Well, the three visible on the cufflinks were: 1, 2, and 5. And that just is NOT RIGHT! Left-handed. Right-handed. It doesn't matter! Not right. I'll leave it as an exercise to the reader to figure out why.

Smacky looked at me and my sudden turn from excitement to disgust and asked what had happened. I told her...in detail (I need to stop doing that). She simply sighed and reminded me that I'm a sick sick sick person. Probably only I would notice or care. Maybe she's right. But geez...get the dice right, people!